Insights.

Do you know what amazes me?
Clouds.
Always changing and always beautiful.
How the sunset paints them like a blossoming exquisite fire that burns across the sky consuming the whole view.
Never has the image failed to bring any day to perfection. 
Regardless of whatever worries plagued me, or any instance that marred the moment before I look heavenward and see the expanse of beauty erupting from the westward rest of the life giving sun as it breaks the horizon that limits our view from the furthest reach of the human eye.
It continues to warm everyone no matter what they believe, fight for, no matter if they are rich or poor, alone or with company, hungry or filled, good or evil it is unbiased in its light and warmth.
The sun and the clouds both provide for all who breathe the air they occupy and again provide us all with the expansive beauty yet ask noting in return.


Just a thought I had the other day while I was outside.
Then I had another thought as I when to bed. I couldn't sleep until I wrote it down to I could put it up here later.


Past deeds should not define us.
What we have learned from them and what we do in the present makes us who we are.
The past is behind us for a reason, so that we can remember it and claim the lessons learned without having them block our view of what is in front of us. 
The future but firstly the present.
If we are constantly regretting and dwelling in the past it is impossible for us to move forward. 
Its like trying to drive down the freeway in reverse using only our little mirrors.
You will never be able to go as fast or dodge obstructions in your way as effectively.
You will hinder yourself and relationships and interactions with everyone else.
Not to mention loose your mind...




So yeah, just a few of things on my mind as of late.

Harder. Better. Faster. Stronger.

                

OK, I have noticed a lot about myself the past few weeks. Firstly, I have visibly gained weight and I don't like that. Secondly, I have a lot less energy, and I really don't like that. Thirdly other people notice too and i'm getting more crap for it that usual.
I have decided to take a stand.
Awesome food that is so easy and convenient, I will have no more of you.
Amazing tasty refreshing soda, you are bad for me.
Laziness, although you pay off now with comfort and awesome, you are making me fat.
No more excuses (unless they include a lack of money or to much REAL work) I have had it with the slow downward spiral.
From now on, No soda. Unless its Baja Blast because I can't say no to that and its not like I will be going to taco bell (the sole proprietor of the amazing Baja Blast) that much anymore...sad face...
No more random Pizza because I am to lazy to walk over to the subway and get something better for me.
No more fast food junkie bull shit. If I end up there because thats where people are going then most of those places offer a salad option.
I have to get control of this before it has more control over me, most of you know how much I hate letting my control into someone or somethings hands that are not my own.
I have decided that I will eat Fruit and or yogurt and or granola types for breakfast.
I will have a salad for lunch, with chicken or another healthy protein source.
For dinner something with lots of veggies, healthy meats and a little bit of carbs.
Maybe sushi...or a subway wrap.
But not only do I need to start loosing bad weight but I need to get my energy back. I feel to tired and lazy to walk a few block when two years ago I damn near walked or rode my bike everywhere, yes it was out of necessity but it didn't bother me then like it does now.
So to combat this I will also be taking my (almost) daily PT more seriously. I am going to attend the gym more and work on waking up my muscles from their apparent hibernation.

I would adore your support however you can manifest it, I can assure you I will need it.

Would you?

We decided at work today that 1 million is just not enough money to endure homosexual fellatio and if one ties a cat to his chest and a piece of evenly buttered toast to his back than it should have a "jetpack" like effect where one would steer by beating the cat around the head. Solid theory...







Just one of many of the fantastic conversations I not only endure but fully participate in working with marines.


With a new year we concentrate more now than ever on starting anew, bettering oneself and moving forward. Best time to be selling gym memberships. But even now I find myself looking more into the past than to the future. I'm working on it but what can I say... As human beings we have weak moments and this is one of mine. No matter I will overcome this as I have everything else, with diligence. One of the strongest of the human traits yes? Our ability to continue when all else has failed us? When we seem to have reached the bottom the only place we know where to look is up.
Not really sure where else I'm going with this but I think the point here is, stay chipper! I know I am doing my very best. More on this later, love you all!